First off, I haven't left this place. Though I am a lot more active on my Tumblr account, I still plan to blow some life into here as well.
Second, I... wasn't really able to keep this place alive for the longest of time. Past summer I've been diagnosed with some pretty bad stuff. For personal reasons I will not mention what it is, but it's the result of all the pain and complaints I've carried with me ever since I was fourteen. Now, almost ten years later- I finally know what's wrong with me.
Unfortunately, if I didn't do anything to improve my bad state I maybe wouldn't even make it to the beginning of 2015. So as you may understand, I had some work to do!
I'm on a medical plan and treatment for half a year- maybe a year, depending how my health will be when I go for a checkup in late December. I'm on three diets, so I have a very limited choice of food. Though I'm used to it now. It was mostly the food that I ate that always made me feel sick and horrible, so I'm glad I finally know which kinds to avoid.
I was... literally a sack of bones for the longest time. I weighed barely anything, and seeing myself like that gave me nightmares more often than not. It was terrifying, to say the least.
That's also the reason why I've been absent- or lacking with any art for so very long. How long has it been, a few years? It's shameful to me, but I literally had no motivation nor energy to do so! Even now, with the recovery, I'm only working half shifts at internship and at work I gotta take it easy too. My body can't handle much at all. And only as of lately has my creativity and inspiration returned to me, hence the newly submitted picture I added today. It's my first completed picture in almost...two years? It's a great accomplishment for me, but I still feel shame for abandoning you guys out of nowhere.
So yeah, in a short summary, that's what happened. I still have a long way to go, but I'm slowly but steadily improving. And as you can see, it's late 2014 and the prediction the doctor made back when they discovered it has not yet happened. So I'm glad I can still type this without worrying that I'll never make it out of bed anymore.
But hey, enough about all that. How have you people been? It has been way too long. This place changed a lot too, haha.
Listening to: The man with the Machine Gun- Final Fantasy VIII
Drinking: Herb tea